monday 30th november
it’s been another horrible weekend & i don’t mean just the weather
which is awful too but something you expect at this time of year,
winter here is dreadful- cold & dark -i understand why some animals hibernate & would choose that any day if it were a true possibility for me, i wouldn’t miss this.
anyway steve was supposed to take me to a fund raising dinner friday night, which was not my request but to raise money for his beloved soccer club, the mighty sligo rovers….
which is an issue in itself- i mean the only time he wants to take me out is to raise money for a stinking losing team he’s devoted too.
says it all really…. still the upside was that during the the days before he was pressuring me to make sure i had something special to wear, which really just means i’m free to buy whatever i want so
of course i did….
amazingly difficult since i live in a smallish town- but yes!! i managed…. i ended up with a sleeveless monsoon silk purple shift dress, with a kind of jewelled neckline. it definitely looked dressy & christmasy without making me feel like a fat shiny xmas bauble. freya was with me so i was able to get a 2nd opinion that gave me confidence!!
anyway to cut a long story short steve didn’t like my dress… grimacing he said it wasn’t the best he had ever seen me in, which of course i thought was pretty nasty in itself but following that he ignored the fact his comments were upsetting- and kept saying stuff like “oh you look like you feel down….”
which continued for days- him pretending he didn’t know what was wrong & me being so angry I couldn’t bring myself to point out the obvious.
we didn’t go anywhere.
